I cannot tell whether I am simply tired or blocked, but I feel lacking in motivation – stuck. And I just realised that the last journaling I did was back in July! I am horrified that the source of my creative expression has ‘dried-up’. Interesting that the title of that last spread was ‘feeling my way’. I didn’t like it at the time and looking at it now I can see why. It’s kind of pretty but meaningless, it has no heart to it as if I was just going thru’ the motions. I think I was.
All this is mirrored in my painting work too, feel as if I’ve lost track and I’m just meandering around, spoiling the paintings I’ve already started. This week I gessoed over three paintings that had become ‘lost’. That’s actually how it is right now for me. I do trust I will find the spark again, but it’s hellish waiting. My astrologer tells me this is all about Sun in Virgo opposite Chiron in Pisces, Saturn is in there somewhere – causing havoc! Meanwhile, I turn up at the easel, so to speak, and play around with sketches, do some basic colour exercises and trust my mojo will come back. Here are some: