I came across this quote by Suzuki Roshi about letting go and it feels both timely and appropriate:
‘We don’t need to learn to let go. We just need to recognise what has already gone.’
I re-member – that there is only this moment, now. No going back to what was – and this applies of course to everything, my youth, my health, who I used to be- even 3 weeks ago. There is sorrow in that, in acknowledging I will never be that person again. I may never run again as I used to. I hope to and I will do my best to – but I may have to accept I can’t and so prepare to let go some more. There are little deaths and bigger deaths every day, every minute. If I am gentle with myself and not fight this reality, cultivate acceptance of what is, I don’t suffer. Not easy but a good practice.
Yesterday I began a series of paintings on large canvases – very exciting and challenging. I may not be able to walk but I can paint! Watch this space!